oh man colds suck. but not that much. I didnt miss that much homework in math jon told me. good thing  and i probably didnt miss much in english and history. just spanish im worried. But im feeling better. sometimes i wish that school would have breaks that are just in the middle of the week so that we could have breaks.  I wonder is Rhonda is happy. she is always happy. its kida like those people who just make you feel good for who u are. And rose does that. only in a diffrent way. I wish someone liked karissa. she is so helplessly in love with me and i like someone else. im cursed. every chick that likes me goes crazy one way or another. First Brooklin, who just turned in to a Bit*h, then Megan who had to move to idahoe becuse her dad lost his job, then Wynter, who held my class hostage for 7 minits with a gun, now im afraid about karissa. I wanna be a monk. like those shaolin monks in Nepal. who know kung fu and they live all religous and stuff. I wont miss girls if im cursed. Well, maybe. But  i like buddhisim. Buddha is tight. Hes like you follow him but you dont have to give your money to him. and he can prove himself cus there is no god damn guy up there.  I like buddha.  I like Rhonda as a friend, but she probably dosent like me. thats a good thing tho. she wont go crazy.  I missed her today. she would have made me happy, but she is at school. I havnt talked to Kara that much.  Mary and Jon are not going well. Gess he was flirting with Karissa and it didnt make mary that happy.  Hate it when there are sparks that just die out. its so sad. I wish every one was happy and true. like in DBZ, the anime that my cuzins like, there is a special cloud for people who have true hearts. and those people can sit on the cloud and look over the world and rid the world of evil. and its pretty fast. You can go alll the way around the world in a second. its a big cloud, but you can break off a peice if you needed it.  I wanna cloud. it would be fun. there is a song by Rolling stones called "hey get off my cloud", its a funny song.  a cloud would be fun to sit on and meditate. to breathe and to settle problems with people.  I wanna cloud. i wonder how much they cost. can you make one? i think you can. ill check the internet. i still like saying uber. its like so uberly cool. clouds are uber too. i think that my definition of Uber is to be hugely cool. Uber clouds. fun, uber clouds ...